Today after class a few of us went to the beach in Gijon because it was really nice outside.On the way to the bus my stomach started to hurt really bad (what else is new) and it started to make me really frustrated because I know that I have not been eating things that I am not supposed to be eating because I have been making my own food and everything! At this point I was hot, hungry, frustrated, and walking almost a mile (probably an exaggeration) to get to the bus station and I about lost it. When we got there I went to a very dark place and my friends asked if something was wrong and I just started hysterically crying. I cried about how I didn't want to be in a bathing suit because the people in Spain are so thin, I cried about how I can't eat anything, I cried about how I just wanted to call friends and family back home and talk to them and ask them what to do about my stomach and what not, and i just cried. It is weird because I usually am a crier, but this is the first time I have cried since I have been here. I must have been bottling a lot of anxiousness up inside and it finally came out. After crying i felt a little better but I still felt really insecure. When I think of Spanish people I always think of curves and normal beautiful bodies....unfortunately (atleast in Oviedo) that does not seem to be the case. The women here are very thin and petite for the most part and are not rocking any curves. I guess I was expecting to fit in here because I think of Spanish women having hour glass figures and big butts (like me!! hah) and to feel way more secure than in the states but to my surprise I feel the opposite. I am way more insecure here than at home and I really feel like the Spanish people are way more judgmental than I thought. Once we got to the beach I felt better because there were people of all different shapes and sizes feeling confident in their bikini's (or lack there of). I swear I have never seen so many naked people in my life! After laying in the sun and getting an ice cream cone I felt a lot better and just came home, showered and made dinner (and almost burned the dorms down doing it..uh oh!) Some of my friends were going out and I really wanted to go but I thought it would be good if I caught up on sleep and relaxed before my big weekend in San Sebastian!! I felt kinda lame for staying in but since my stomach has been having some issues I wouldn't want to make it worse for this weekend. We are coming back to the dorms right after school to get our stuff and then taking a taxi to the bus station. The bus from Oviedo to San Sebastian is 6 hours...ugh...but I am hoping to sleep. We get to San Sebastian about 9 ( just in time for dinner) and then we are going to go out on the town! I am assuming saturday we will spend all day at the beach and then go out at night, and sunday we dont leave San Sebastian until like 5 which means well probably lay on the beach all day before then. I will get back to Oviedo probably around 11 pm at night on Sunday so I will update then!! I will not have my computer this weekend so hasta luego!!

Apparently this is the view from the hostel we were staying at (it was a little more expensive than we had hoped)